Politics, and the government itself, has been on my mind a lot lately. If you've talked to me in the last few months, you would know this. And I've probably annoyed you already ;P. I've talked to (mostly) online friends who are active with politics, and we've all come to a general consensus. We're all really annoyed, and frustrated, with the way things are going (shocker). What the United States needs is to start a liberal and moderate coalition to respond to the far right wing forces that have conquered the Republican party. We have to get rid of the compromisers in the Democratic party, and find politicians that are not exactly legit leftists, but left leaning and actually principled. We have to bring our ideologies together. We need to get the black and Hispanic democrats behind gay rights in a way that they're not right now. We have to reaffirm the core of our agenda and advance it from there.

What we want:

We want a STRONGER social safety net - including Universal Health care.

We want the RICH to PAY MORE TAXES. We don't want to bleed them dry - but asking people with 10 million dollars to pay a higher percentage than the family of five making $54,000/ year is NOT unreasonable. Even those who run small-mid size businesses are being fucked by a government that bleeds them dry, while giving the biggest cooperations on earth a free pass to basically ignore their tax obligations.

We want an end to the wars in the Middle East.

We want federally recognized gay marriage NATIONWIDE, regardless of what individual states attempt to mandate or prevent

We want to restore secularism in America. Get god OFF our money (how about - 'In reason we trust') and TAX THE CHURCHES. A measure which even religious people should support! Christianity is not unified and no one wants the religious beliefs of others to become 'the laws of the land'.

We want a police force that is actually trained to HELP citizens, instead of brutalizing them.

Although I personally don't agree with legalizing/regulating/taxing marijuana for personal reasons, it could potentially help the economy tremendously. In my opinion, start taxing other things first, and if it's still not enough, begin the legalization of marijuana.

Right now, only the BAD GUYS have an agenda. And that's why they're winning. It's time to put it to an end.

ANYWAY, regarding personal life news:

I have the sweetest viewers ever ;). Thanks for all of your kind words and messages. Definitely feel free to add me on Facebook. I have the link there for a reason!

I am so sore from the gym today. We did 45 minutes cardio and 30 minutes in the strength training area. I worked out with Vanessa + her a few girls from her soccer team today, which was incredibly intimating (even though I've done it a few times already), however, they're all so motivational. The best thing ever was realizing how pathetic I was - at least in comparison to them. We took up a whole row of treadmills, and all started at a pretty decent walking speed (not to mention wearing ankle weights). I was on the last treadmill to the right side of the room, Vanessa was to my left, and her team was to the left of her. 25 minutes into our work out, I kind of zoned out while listening to music. I eventually took off my headphones to turn to Vanessa, and tell her how I felt like I was about to die, and I see her, as well as her whole team, turned to the side facing me and sideways skipping, as well as running backwards (Basically like this video). I legitimately was like:



After our work out, I was obviously feeling pumped, yet incredibly more run-down compared to the athletic girls I was working out with. I felt frustrated for letting my body go, I felt like even if I kept trying, I'd never look like any of my friends, and I almost felt like crying. Perhaps it was stupid, but I was caught up in the moment. I excused myself from everyone to "go to the locker room and wash my face" (aka don't want to cry in front of them). I walked through the ladies strength area to get to the locker room, and saw one of my favorite machines open (i don't know exactly what it's called? you lay down on it and it works out your ass? haha). It's hardly ever free, and I wasn't able to do it earlier, so I jumped at the opportunity. I did the machine for a few moments, and headed over to the antibacterial pump because I'm a germaphobe. A woman was standing there and was like: "I see you're trying to get fit, and so am I, but I wanted to tell you that you're the prettiest girl in here." I think my eyes instantly started welling up with tears (I tried to hide it ;\) and I thanked her/told her how sweet she was. Maybe receiving that particular compliment and feeling better makes me look lame, but it really came at a perfect time when I was feeling really upset. I certainly don't think I'm prettier than everyone, nor do I think I'm hideous, but the fact this woman was looking past "body image", is what made me feel better. /end vent.

RIP Jamey. Your story breaks my heart so much. I'm sorry, kiddo <3.




( Hello, October...I've missed you... )

As a Scorpio who is surrounded with Pisces friends, dating another Scorpio, and can pretty much accurately describe relationships/friendships based on their Zodiac signs, I have all the proof I need to firmly confirm all belief I have in most aspects of Astrology.

I've surrounded myself with a lot of water signs lately, which makes me feel very calm, happy, loved, and comfortable. I've always unknowingly had all Pisces friends, and found it difficult to bond with other signs. I always have, and always will, talk about the wonderful friend a Pisces has the ability to be to a Scorpio. Also, the dynamic between a Scorpio and Scorpio is crazy weird. Different than everything I've felt before. There is a huge underlying comfort/security feeling, which is something usual Scorpio's tend to need/crave. Scorpio's are often told we communicate with our eyes, our facial expressions or gestures. Imagine having conversations with someone across the room at a party without even opening your mouth. That's exactly how it is. Cancer's make me feel more stable (specifically emotionally stable) because it's nice to see someone freak out more than me, haha. Despite my love for the water signs, I do miss the edge of fire signs. I guess I get that feeling when I hang out with my brothers, crazy ass Leo's.



I want to love this photo, however, 1) I'm doing this ugly thing with my lips and making them look non-existent & 2) I look naked, even though I'm wearing a tank top. I love the Scorpio necklace though ;\. And my hair color.

Scorpios have very high expectations for their friends. They keep a small circle and don’t open up to people easily. For them, quality is much more valuable than quantity.

Scorpios think much more than they speak and have the sharp ability to distinguish between truths and lies. They will not hesitate to stand up for justice.

Scorpios are always subconsciously searching for a true friend who can understand them and agree with all the cynicism of this world. They do not innately like wars, but they have the potential and capability to put up a good battle. They will never probe a fight or offend people, but when met with offensive opposition, they will fight to the death for what they believe in.

Scorpio's will absolutely not tolerate humiliation or condescension. If they must, they will always suppress their moodiness and let it go when they are in an unfavorable situation. Yet that doesn’t apply to condescension. If they feel disgraced, you will see their expression turn stone cold – that would be their attempt to control their anger. At this point you better shut up and stop pressing their buttons, or else who knows what will happen to you.

Since Scorpios are such solitary animals, they are deeply aware that they’re inharmonious with many people. They smile a lot yet not all of it comes from their true heart, but merely to adapt to the occasion. Scorpios feel strongly protective over the ones that truly love and understand them, as in a Scorpio’s world, these people are very rare. They hold these people close to their hearts and will not publicly display their love. However, at crucial moments, guess who will be devotedly defending you and willing to sacrifice for you? You guessed it. If the person that the Scorpio loves is being hurt by another, the Scorpio could turn very vicious. If you want to call Scorpios vindictive, this is probably the time they will be most inclined to take revenge. If you ask me, the strongest emotions Scorpios have displayed is probably for the sake of protecting someone they love.

Scorpio is a water sign, and like all the water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) this woman is very susceptible to the feelings of others. Her most intense desire is for a close, committed union. In a relationship she cannot bear coldness or casualness or a feeling that she is being shunted aside. When she is in love she is at her most vulnerable, for then a lover can hurt her without even knowing it. Another woman might forgive and forget, but when a Scorpio woman is hurt she will always strike back.

Scorpio's are a fixed sign, and they possesses an enduring capacity for loyalty. A partner could not have a fiercer ally. If a Scorpio woman loves you, she will defend and protect you with her dying breath. What she demands is constancy–what she offers is fidelity.

In all their relationships they become quickly enraged if the partner pays a little too much attention to anyone they would deem as a threat. The thought of losing someone they care for is dreadful for Scorpio, but there is sometimes a fine line between Scorpio’s passionate, loyal and committed nature and one that borders on obsession. They can be so obsessed to have their mate by his/her side and view commitment as for a lifetime, finding it difficult to let go. At its worst, Scorpio drives away those that they most love with their demanding passions and territorial nature.

Scorpios are naturally strong and independent. This makes them a good foundation and example to their kids. Scorpios, although very emotional, are also strong. They can set a good pattern on how to overcome difficulties with pride and dignity. They can carry the weight of the whole family if deemed necessary. Whether it be financial or emotional troubles, their kids and the family can rely on the Scorpio parent to pull them up.

Keeping all the bad aside, Scorpions are the strongest, most lovable friends ever. Their loyalty is unquestionable and though hidden, their interests are honorable. They are also adept investigators so if you want to dig up dirt on your soon-to-be spouse, a Scorpio friend is an absolute must have.



In exactly ONE month until my 24th (LOL, I accidently typed 21st. I wish!) birthday.

Mother. Of. God.

I'm posting this super early (Scorpio's begin on October 24th, but I'm going to be MIA from the computer for the next 2 months due to traveling, and a general desire to concentrate on other things besides the internets). Whether or not you're interested/believe/etc, Happy motherfucking Birthday, Scorpio bitches.

I'm going to watch a movie now. I mentally began making lists of movies I must watch as soon as possible.

We'll start with:
Hocus Pocus
Beetlejuice
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Underwraps
Halloweentown
Scream

Don't expect me to watch anything else for at least the next month.
Night <3.

Tags: astrology, pictures, scorpio, zodiac

I'm not one to troll or have arguments with people on the internet. Seriously. If I don't like something I read, there's a CHANCE I would leave some input and then remove myself from the situation entirely.

Anyway, one of the women I was subscribed to on Youtube is really religious, which I clearly am not into. However, she makes many beauty videos regarding natural techniques and such, which IS what I'm into. She started posting a lot of videos regarding religion/the bible/etc and it totally turned me off. I unsubscribed because it IS her channel and she's allowed to post anything she wants. She's a very sweet lady and I'm not trying to offend her.

HOWEVER (you knew this was coming), the comments on her recent video KILL ME. Literally. They make me die.

The video was her discussing what the bible says about married couples and whether or not they should be allowed to do anything they want behind closed doors with god's approval.

She lost me there.

One commenter in particular is a 26 year old Christian named Tricey.
"I am someone who is a born again christian loves the Lord, loves my family. I believe in honesty and showing kindness one toward another. I graduated from John F. Kennedy in 2002. I am also a single woman with no kids. I use this channel as a way to shed light on who are false teachers in christianity. One thing I can't stand is falsehood. I try on a daily basis to practice what I preach, but I admit it is difficult. I believe that believers in Christ can do all things through Christ that strenghens us."

Clearly, we are on TOTALLY DIFFERENT PLANETS, however, I am tolerant towards all people and religions. If I, an Atheist, can have a Christian best friend, I can conquer anything, OKAY?

Here was our conversation:

I'm in the pink (because I'm a Princess, duh).



Honestly, looking back, I shouldn't have even responded to her. Especially my last comment. It's a kind of agreement NO ONE would win, you know?

I was in a pretty awful mood today and I suppose her comments were read at the wrong time. Perhaps I need to stay away from 'anger triggers' when I'm not in a pleasent mood, yeah?

I also felt like updating/writing today and this is the best I got that isn't too personal ;P. Ya'll wouldn't be prepared for the real shit.

( You'll never guess what's behind here... )

I had a dentist appointment this morning at my job. I had a temporary crown in my mouth and the appointment was to put the crown in place. T (the assistant) didn't numb me prior to placing the crown during the fitting, which ordinarily doesn't hurt unless you're experiencing sensitivity (which I was unaware of), but it hurt like A.MOTHER.FUCKER for me :\. She tried putting air and water on my tooth which was probably the worst physical pain I've felt in a very long time. I literally jumped up in my seat and started crying, which made T cry because "she loves me and she felt bad for hurting me". Poor thing. So, Miriam comes in the room and was all "OH MY GOD, WHAT HAPPEND?" as she sees her staff in tears. My mouth still hurts, but looking back at it, it was a little bit funny ;P.

I came home from my appointment and cleaned up my house a little bit. I was being a drama queen on the phone and discussing my traumatic morning as I walked outside to throw some trash away. As I was walking, I felt something, you know, go through my fucking foot. I stare at my foot for about twenty seconds and all I could manage to say out loud was "Oh. Hold on.". NBD, I stepped on a nail. COOOOOOOOOOL. I've been barefoot outdoors for 23 years of my fucking life and I've never hurt myself before :\. So, I pull the nail out of my foot and drip blood all the way to the bathroom. Mind you, the person on the phone still has no idea what's going on because I, for some reason, became very quiet and calm through this. Pretty sure I'll get lockjaw or some kind of other disease because of it. Love life.

So, by this point, my mouth and my foot are hurting. I'm being extra pouty, I'm already a baby to begin with, I'm basically ready to lay down in bed and die....until I get a call from Angie. She was stuck at Juan's job and needed a ride home. Before I could be all "OH, HELLLL NOOO", she quickly yelled "THERE'S MONKEY'S HERE! WE CAN PLAY WITH THEM!". I obviously had to go.

I get to the vet place and see the two monkey's in cages. They were SOFUCKINGCUTEOHMYLANTA. One was named Lane, a little dude who loves to drink soda, watch TV and give high fives. I hugged him for, I don't know, twenty minutes before he was pulled away from my arms. Then, there was Betty. A little Satan monkey from hell. She bit me. HARD. She bit us all. YOU'RE RUDE, BETTY.



Here she is. Don't let the cuteness fool you. There are pictures of Lane that I want to like, blow up to poster size and hang all over my bedroom, but Angie didn't upload all of them yet.

I get home and Caroline texts me "Get on Skype, someone has something to tell you!". I get on Skype and Noah is sitting there alone. Which was kind of freaky, LOL. I'm all "Hi babe??!?!!? Where's mommy?". All of the sudden, Caroline, Livy and Jake jump out of no where and start screaming about Disney World, New York, Canada and my birthday. Basically, all of them are driving down to Florida around October 18th. They're going to pick me up, we're going to spend 2 weeks in Disney, we're all going to drive back to NY where I'll be staying with them in the mountains for another 2 weeks. While I'm there, they're going to take me to Montreal and we're also going to spend two days in NYC ;D. I'm so excited. My boss is going to love me missing a month of work. I definitely need to start putting money aside.

So, after the conversation about October, I figured my bad luck for the day was over. Negative. We have Mango and Avocado's growing outside in my backyard. I saw hundreds of them this morning and was excited to pick some when I had the time. I go outside and ALL of the Mango's are gone D: - I was freaking sad. It's okay though because I mainly wanted the Avocado's so I could make my hair masks ;). I'm tossing them in bags and see something out of my peripheral vision. Something moving around in the lake. WHAT THE (#^$(*^%# WAS IT? A GATOR! Real. ass. shit.



I'm disappointed at the picture quality but I was literally freaking out and trying to snap the picture! I tried to edit as best as I could but it still looks shitty :\.

I literally dropped my bag of Avocados and ran inside (k, walked quickly. My foot still hurt!). Why? To get away from the gator? Nope. To find something to feed it. Hahahahhaha. I'm a fucking idiot. I grabbed 2 hot dogs and ran back outside. My neighbors were out there calling some kind of animal control, which made me sad, because I wanted to keep him and was already thinking of names, but I realize it's not safe for a gator to be near children, animals, etc. I threw the hot dogs in the water and fucker went for it within 3 seconds. It was AMAZING. Before you all think I'm a total idiot, my neighbors and I are not standing at water level. We are above and looking down on the gator. We definitely would have had ample time to run away if the gator tried to run after us. I think.

So, right after that, the boys came over to hang out and eat dinner with Mom and I. We ordered soups and subs from this place (which I was excited about because all I had to eat was a handful of grapes for breakfast) and...they forgot my soup. Which was the only thing I ordered/was able to eat. I should have assumed they would forget my food. Like, why wouldn't something else go wrong today? Haha.

So, it's not even 8:30 pm and I've had my mouth mutilated, a nail went through my foot, I was bit by a Monkey, I found out I was going on a month long vacation, I tried to make an Alligator my pet and I have no dinner.

I crawl into my bed, put on "The Addam's Family" and was about to send my "Yes, I'm saying goodnight before 9pm on a Friday night because my life is awesome like that", when Vanessa and Rene call me and tell me they are outside and have a surprise for me. I put my clothes back on, walk outside and get in the backseat of Vanessa's car feeling confused/anxious because I don't really like surprises. Rene turns around and hands me FLOWERS. They were already bloomed but they are so gorgeous. It was such a sweet gesture and greatly appreciated <3. We drove around for a little, listened to music and talked. They dropped me off and here I am.



'Pity flowers', I'll take it! ;P

I suppose that's it for now. Goodnight.

( It's been a while and I'm no longer tired... )

I'm so annoyed with all of these people being all "OMGGG, RON PAULLL!!! <3".

No. Just no.

People seem to LIKE a few things he says or supports (such as; legalizing Marijuana and ending the war)...yet these people totally IGNORE really big things that would make him a terrible "world leader".

Why I don't support Ron Paul:

-He doesn't believe in separation between Church and State.

His quote: "The notion of a rigid separation between church and state has no basis in either the text of the Constitution or the writings of our Founding Fathers. On the contrary, our Founders' political views were strongly informed by their religious beliefs. Certainly the drafters of the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, both replete with references to God, would be aghast at the federal government's hostility to religion."

Even the biggest douchelord of all, GEORGE BUSH, believed in separating Church and State.

-He claims to be a Scientist, yet he doesn't believe in Evolution.

His quote: "You know it is a theory, nobody has concrete proof of any of this. But quite frankly I think it's sort of irrelevant, that because we don't know the exact details and we don't have geologic support for evolutionary forms, it is a theory, even though it's a pretty logical theory. But my concept of understanding of a creator is not related one bit to whether or not I or anybody has to believe in evolution or not believe in evolution."

Are we really going to support a dude who totally ignores all of modern Biology, Genetics, etc? How is he even a Scientist? He has had MEDICAL doctor training, but he's not like in "research in development". He's more like a Physician. How does that make him a Scientist? A Creation Scientist? That's scary. Fuck outta here.

-He's pro-life.

Although I personally could never have an abortion and I don't support it...the option of abortion NEEDS to be there. For many reasons. I don't want to turn this into an abortion debate.

I know he's not going to be elected, so perhaps me freaking out about this isn't going to mean much. I still felt the need to write about it.

You know who DOES worry me? This bitch, Michele Bachmann. I found this article on Tumblr, I didn't write it. It definitely scared me a little bit.



( If you thought Sarah Palin was bad..Shhiitt.. )

Anyway, I'm exhausted. I was Skyping with my babe, Noah, for two hours this morning. Oh, and Caroline, too ;P. I miss them sooooo much. Seriously. It hurts my heart. Olivia got glasses, Jake sounds like a 42 year old man, Noah is talking SO much (he will be FOUR in January!)...I'm missing everything ;\.

I look so fucking pale. And naked. I am neither ;P.

Stole this from some girl's LJ ;P

"Life is a circle. There are highs and there are lows. Go full circle and tell us a little about both"

Positive:

+School. It's been a difficult few months but my loans are all in order and I'm ready to go back. My major/career idea's have changed 9379075 times, but my best bet is to continue with my existing degree and finish my bachelor's in Science. In the long run, it will be beneficial to me due to it's endless possibilities + step in the medical field. I'm so excited to go back. I hope I don't regret saying that, lol. Whether I love it or not, I'm at least happy about having a career.

+Work. My boss? Fucking awesome. She's hooking me up with free dental work (cosmetic and other necessary things she discovered during my exam). I've had two appointments so far and I'm going back again on Friday.

+My hair. Am I annoying ya'll yet orrr.....?? ANYWAY. I've pretty much hit my goal length. When my hair is dry and bouncy, it hits the small of my back (or a little longer because I have some layers). It touches my butt crack when it's wet ;P. I haven't straightened it yet, but I'm curious to see the length when it's straight. I also haven't colored at all (so my hair is getting super light ;\). I'm excited to look around and see some new colors. Obviously I will be going dark brown because I don't think I'd look good with anything else + I'm scared! This may not be a big deal to some people....but not everyone realizes how much work thick, curly hair is! I have to spend a lot of time making/testing products, conditioning, etc. I definitely think my hair is the prettiest it's ever been and I'm proud, okayy?!

Negative:

-My skin. Well, specifically my chin. Early in June, I started breaking out a little on my chin. I was due to a period and figured it was hormones and didn't care. Well, period came and left, my skin stayed the same. It got worse, it got better, then it got worse again. Over a month later and it's still here. And I'm due for another period. It's driving me FUCKING CRAZY. I don't want to be dramatic because it's certainly not "severe acne". However, this information is coming from a 23 year old who has always had "good skin" with very minimal break outs. For a while, I refused to do anything but go to work. I didn't want to wear make up (Idk, I was paranoid it would make it worse?) and it was emotionally upsetting me. Of course, everyone I talked to was all "OMG YOU FUCKING DRAMA QUEEEEEN, SHUUUTTT UPPP". Legit though, it makes me feel really self conscious. Thankfully, it's looking much more clear now!

-Living situation. I'm used to (and would rather) an independent living situation. I moved back home last year and it's definitely time I get out. There's been a lot of talk about New York, however, due to my dad's health problems, that idea kind of got thrown away. Caroline has also been harassing me about moving to Saranac Lake (Upstate NY). It's BEAUTIFUL there and so much fun (hiking/mountains/boating/smores ;), camp fires/tubing/fishing) but I don't think I could fucking LIVE in the Adirondacks. I'm planning on visiting again soon though because I miss my babies! I'm hoping they take a road trip down here so we can all go to Disney again. If they drive, I'd road trip back with them and then fly home later on. Well, unless I take someone with me, I'm tired of always flying alone! Haha. Kind of went off topic there. My bad. Point is, I want to go look at some apartments or town houses or something. I'd much rather live alone, however, that's a little scary and a little too expensive. I loved my old roommate and it's going to be hard to find someone who is trustworthy, responsible, doesn't annoy the fuck out of me and respects my personal space. I don't know, we'll see how things go in other areas before I make a decision.

There are also things, on going things, that I am feeling down about. However, they are all completely out of my control, so I don't see the point in talking about them. Thankfully, I have some really amazing people in my life right now and they have my back ♥.

Anywayyyyy, today Ang & I spent the entire day together. I picked her up at 7am (omg, I KNOW) and she left about 30 minutes ago. We took some pictures ;).




( Being absolutely stupid together since 1999... )

( Survey... )

Completely and utterly sick to my stomach.

I've been keeping up with this case since Caylee has been missing. I've been watching this trial for the last month like a fucking hawk. No matter where I am. Even in Disney World!

INNOCENT on ALL murder counts. This jury was fucking retarded. Casey will be free in what? 4 years? Will she get time served? And be out in 2 years? Or, even BETTER, walk free on Thursday?

"Casey Anthony, who sat grim faced throughout the six weeks of testimony, beamed happily as she was fingerprinted in the courtroom for her misdemeanor convictions."

I'm looking at this fucking bitch smiling on camera. I am disturbed. Let me guess, she's going to...write a book, get a movie, etc. Casey Anthony, who got away with the murder of her own daughter, is going to profit from this.



Cool, murder your baby but pretend she's been kidnapped for 31 days, don't tell anyone, party, get tattoos, fuck your boyfriend, live it up, don't give a fuck about your "missing" (aka dead) daughter, lie to everyone (while your 2 1/2 year old daughter's body is decomposing in the woods/swamp near your house, thrown in trash bags with duct tape covering her mouth and nose)...and get away with 99% of it.

The lack of DNA evidence really killed this case and I understand that. Circumstantial evidence was enough to put Scott Peterson away. I really wish it was enough in this case, too. Only ONE person could benefit from Caylee being dead...and that was her mother. I will agree with those who state their wasn't enough evidence to 'comfortably' give her murder in the first degree (especially because they couldn't find a cause of death), but don't fucking try to fight motive. There WAS motive. If they would have found Caylee's body sooner, we wouldn't be having this fight right now.



I am so, so, so, sad. Everyone in my room was looking at ME during the verdict, and not the TV, because my reactions were insane. I was/am super emotional. I just...can't believe it's over. I'm basically speechless at this point.

Zero justice for Caylee Anthony. Extremely disappointed.

I had a lot to update about; Disney, traveling, school, recent events, life in general, etc - but I feel really fucking horrible discussing happy/positive things on a day like this.

Fuck, dude.
:[

I'm going to Disney in 12 days. Thank you, Disney Gods.

It's been more than 45 days since I've hugged Snow White. So not cool.

I was talking to Vanessa on FB chat about pictures from my Disney album and general things about Disney World. The topic of outrageous food prices came up and I jokingly explained the story of how I stole money from baby Noah to buy cheese for our pretzel. Vanessa thought it was hilarious and posted this;



One of the people who liked the status was Rene, Chloe's boyfriend. I'm assuming he read Vanessa's status, a light bulb popped into his head and he called Chloe telling her that we all need to plan a trip.

So, there are 5 of us as of right now and I'm trying to drag other people (I reeeeeally want to take my brothers but they work) with us. We're already planning on getting two hotel rooms, so it would be free to the 2-3 other people we can fit :]. I refuse to go with an odd number group (For the sake of riding rides. Yes, that is my main concern :P), so I'll figure it out. We're having a little fight over the hotel though because I'm voting for "cheap ass hotel" and everyone wants to splurge. I'm trying to save everyone money because we will probably be OUT of the hotel room or SLEEPING, so, I can't justify paying over $200/night. However, they're all yelling at me because "they're Mexican and are tired of cheap hotel rooms on vacations". OOOKAAAYYY THEN? Hahahaha. I also am trying to understand that Disney World MAY be a "big deal" for them and for me it's more like "One more trip", you know?

I'm definitely excited. However, it's going to be.....SO FUCKING HOT. Florida is in the 90's right now (I think 93 today?) and I don't see it getting any cooler. It's also more packed because it's summer vacation. However, I have the pass for the lines, so we'll be pretty good :P. I'm also a little concerned about my back, although I don't think I will have any problems with Disney rides/coasters (in comparison to the huge ones at IOA that I basically tried killing myself on).

Anyway, I have a lot of stuff to do right now.
Buh bye.

My dad lives near this woman, Helena, and her family. She's like...150 years old. Her son is completely irresponsible and doesn't take care of her, leaves her home alone [so she "gets out" and wanders around the neighborhood], and he's basically waiting for her to die so he can take her money. It's disgusting.

So listen.

I was at my dad's yesterday, looked outside his window, and I saw Helena sitting outside her house with a flower pot on her head. Yes, a flower pot.





I'm definitely closer than I look, so I can assure you it's a flower pot. Would you also like to know how I'm so certain what's on her head? This is not the first time I've seen it as an accessory.

I feel so bad for this woman. She's left alone by her fuck of a son, so she does things like; plan her escape missions, run around the circle screaming "Help Me" 50 times until she is discovered, or simply, sit outside in 95 degree weather wearing a sweater and a flower pot on her head.

I don't even....
I couldn't make this shit up if I tried.

Anyway, I'm home now and trying to make plans for tonight. Everyone wants to be lazy instead. WHATTHEHELL? You bitches begggggggg me to come out and have literally dragged me out of the house for weeks, yet, I finally *initiate* plans and ya'll don't feel like it? PSHHHHHHH :P! Angie and I work tomorrow at the buttcrack of dawn, so it's probably best that I stay home anyway. Oh well. However, Vanessa, Chloe and her boyfriend went to a funeral this evening and they're all feeling bummed, so I just texted them and told them to come over and hang out with me until something fun comes up.

I found a recipe on Tumblr (don't hate) and I'm going to prepare it for them ;). I made one for myself the other day. It's yummy and really simple. Honestly though, I have more fun being OUT of the kitchen. It's cute to feed my friends though.



"1 med apple, cored
1 tsp lemon juice
2 tbs chocolate chips
1 tbs organic peanut butter
2 tbs granola or oats
Core an apple and cut out two thick slices. Brush both slices with lemon juice to prevent them from turning brown.

Take one slice and add the peanut butter, to that, add some granola and a few chocolate chips.
Top with the other apple slice."

Laptop is dying. Pouts. Buh bye.

I'm the first to admit that I hardly wear my seatbelt. When I hit 18, I started to get lazy and felt more comfortable driving without a seatbelt. I'm weird and think seatbelts that touch the left side of my body are sooooo GD annoying. I'm more likely to wear a seatbelt as a passenger. Anyway, I seem to only wear it when others suggest it or I'm the only one not reaching to buckle up as soon as everyone gets into car. After meeting Joran today, that has changed. I will never ever ever be without a seatbelt again :\. It's sad that it's taken me this long to come to this conclusion.

In March of 2010, a 21 year old named Joran was heading home from work. She was an after school teacher at a local Elementary school. When she was about 5 minutes away from her house, she was t-boned by an SUV and thrown all over her car because she wasn't wearing her seatbelt. To this day, she is still recovering from a traumatic brain injury and is unable to walk or talk.

Before:






After:




I can't even look at these pictures. It breaks my heart. I met her and her family through the teen shelter Jeff opened. They're doing a car wash for her tomorrow and her family is having a few charity events this month and next month to help cover her medical bills. Insurance is no longer paying for her care (yeah, I know) and her mother has turned their dining room into a mini-hospital for her. Joran's mom was given lessons/classes on how to take care of her daughter so she could save money on Joran's care :\.

I feel so fucking bad for all of her friends and family. Her parents are really awesome people, although I don't necessarily agree with them putting 100% praise into god over her recovery, but we won't go there. So far Joran's progress is very slow yet steady. Joran is there...but she's not really "there". When she sees friends and family, her face shows sign of recognition. It's truly heartbreaking. Joran's boyfriend from before the accident is there for her as much as he can and visits her the most. To be as young as he is and have a SO in such bad shape...I give the dude a lot of credit. Unconditional love is hard to find.

This is what her dad wrote in an online journal. My eyes tear up every single time I've read this:

"I have been asking Joran to kiss ME lately, putting my cheek on her lips...I feel her cheeks & lips move a little (not quite a pucker!) as if she remembers how to kiss her Dad..I coax that kiss out of her and boy does it lift my spirits - she KNOWS she is pecking her pap! Joking with the nurse the other day, we had a loud laugh..I looked at Joran and she too was cracking a BIG smile. Never has a smile meant so much."

"EVERY bit of information I read absolutely suggests as much brain stimulation as possible in order to recover from a TBI. ANY memories that can be "kick started" by visual (family pictures), sounds (fav songs) or other are extremely critical in the recovery process. I've mentioned we played Van Morrison's song Brown Eyed Girl in the car often while we all sang along - all my kids have brown eyes. Playing the song for Joran on my I-Pod several months ago, SaraJeanne noticed a tear rolling down Joran's cheek (Made me cry too!). Had to quit that as I'm not sure it was helping Joran remember good times (she no longer has) or feeling the loss and frustration of her situation- a very painful episode. However, I continue to show her pictures of family trips, old friends and other iconic images such as Chick-fil-a & Olive Garden logos- her favorite eaterys. Let's hope and pray Jaimies visit stimulates her greatly and provokes other visitors that can do the same."

I cannot even imagine going through any of this. This situation pulls on my heartstrings so much :[.

Although I am hardfuckingcore stressing over a few things going on in my life...I'm really thankful to be who I am and where I am. Everyone needs to remind themselves that their problems can be very mediocre to others around them.

Anyway, I've had a loooong day and I'm happy to be home. Oh. Indiana Jones is on.